I have not been sleeping lately at all. I have so many things on my mind and I just can't clear them at all. It is so scary to think that my life is at another turning point.
My whole life I have dreamt of becoming a teacher and when I started having kids of my own, I just figured I would never get my degree or become a teacher. This Friday is my last day of student teaching and I can't believe it. I can't believe that I will have a batchelors degree and that I can actually be a teacher. I guess dreams do come true, now the hardest part will be to find a job. I am so excited to be finally done with school, but I am also sad because I just love these kids and know that this chapter in my life will be over with soon.
Along with many other chapters in my life, it is changing. AJ will be leaving on his mission on Dec 16, I will be graduating, and Mike has retired from his job in the military. We have so many questions about our future. We have always dreamt of when our boys would serve a mission and now that AJ is ready, it is so scary for me. Will he be ok?? We won't be there if he has problems and will I be ok??? I have a very closeness to AJ and it is going to be quite emotional for me. This teaches me a lot about sacrifice. I hope that I can be strengthened through this hard time, because it will be tough.
During times like this, when I feel so excited but scared, is when I miss my very close friends, especially those that live miles away. They have always been such a strength to me and I miss their love. What an exciting time in life!!!!