Friday, May 22, 2009

I can't believe he is so big!!!

This week, I have been remembering when my kids were little and some of the memories that we have had through the years. This is my little AJ. Isn't he the cutest?

As I was thinking about him, I was remembering the day that he scared me to death. My husband was gone to drill and AJ was about 10-12 months old. I heard him scream and went and checked on him and decided to bring him back into my bed with me. After he had been in the bed with me for a little while, he quit breathing. I didn't know what to do or what was wrong with him. I screamed for help, but there was no one to help me. I remembered the CPR class that I had just taken a couple of weeks earlier and tried to focus on what to do. By this time he was starting to turn blue. I started to give him mouth to mouth. I was able to remember what needed to be done and he finally started to breathe again, even though it seemed like and eternity. He was so limp and lethargic and this scared me too. I called my husband and wasn't able to get a hold of him but told them to tell him to meet me at the emergency room and that it was an emergency.

At this point, my husband was very shook up and came home and picked up my oldest daughter and took her with him. He felt like he wanted to be with someone if it was very bad.
They ended up not being able to find out what the problem was and sent us home after some tests.

There is no way to tell you how hard this was on me. For a couple of months afterwards, I continued to have nightmares that he died. It was awful. When you think that you have almost lost a child, it is the hardest thing you could imagine.

One of the hardest thing about this experience is that it happened a couple of more times before they found out what was wrong with him. He ended up having seizures and would quite breathing. They put him on medicine and after about three years he grew out of it.

Any time a mother goes through something like this with her child, she grows so close to them. I was worried every second. AJ is such a very special young man and we are so blessed to have him and we feel so lucky. Anyone that knows him will agree with me, there is just something very special about him.

15 comments:

Erin said...

Ooh, how scary! I'm glad they finally figured it out.

Kristina P. said...

How scary, Kate! I'm so glad everything was OK.

Audrey said...

Scary. I had a scare with my oldest when she was less than 2 months old, it's really hard.

Heatherlyn said...

That would be so scary. I don't know if I could actually perform CPR. That would give me nightmares for a long long time. I'm so glad that he lived and that he eventually got over it. Every parent wants to see their little baby grow up.

-Melissa- said...

How scary! I can't even start to imagine what that would be like. I'm glad everything is o.k.

Kathy B! said...

That's a terrifying story. Thank God you knew what to do and were able to handle it. Thank God he is okay now.

He truly must be a special boy.

Rae said...

We've had some close calls ourselves and you're absolutely right; it makes everything different!! I'm so glad he grew out of it and that you were able to treat it.

Angel said...

I can't even imagine that. I am so glad you knew what to do and that all is now okay. You are all so blessed to have each other. Adorable picture of him as a little one, btw. :-)

tammy said...

How scary. I think I would've wanted to sleep with him in my bed and not let him out of my sight. I am a worrier even when there's nothing to worry about. So glad this had a happy ending. It's hard to deal with things like that when your hubby is gone too, isn't it? Seems like the bad things always happen when mine is gone.

susette said...

He's a cutie. I love the look on his face examining his dirty little hand.

You are a great mom, and being able to share closeness with a son is extra special.

The Kooky Queen--Rachel said...

WOW, what a horrifying experience for you!!!!!!! I'm glad they found out what is wrong with him, what a cutie!

Fiauna said...

A happy ending for a terrifying story. I'm so glad it all worked out.

Loralee and the gang... said...

I had a similar experience with my son when he was 2. SO glad he pulled through - he is now on his mission!
Hey, and I have a blog award waiting for you over at Life With the Carey Gang . . .
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Andrea said...

That's so scary! I'm glad it worked out alright. And the picture is adorable.

SO said...

I can't even imagine how frightening that would have been! I'm glad you still have your little guy with you.